After sixs years of dreaming about being here, I'm finally here at Elim Bible Institute. It all feels so unreal yet so unbelievably wonderful! It's better than I imagined and harder than I imagined. There's something so great about the atmosphere here. I feel so free to be me and I don't feel like I'll be judge for being my crazy, strange, and weird self. I don't think I've ever become so comfortable with people so fast. I just love it. Plus God is doing a lot of work in my heart already. We have this class called "Marriage and Family," and that class brings up most of the heart issues with me. I feel so unready for my future marriage. I realize that before I even consider dating anyone, I need to get some major issues of my heart healed and restored. I don't know what marriage means. I don't understand it. And quite frankly, relationships are so much more complicated and messy than I can deal with right now. So what I'm getting at is I've finally come to the realization of how needy I am and that my heart is in a pathetic place. God needs to be the only intimate romance I have for a long time...and somehow...I'm starting to be okay with that. I don't know how long a long time is, but however long it takes it's going to be alright with me. This place makes me so hungry for God and His Word. I've never wanted such a understanding of the Bible until now. I just want to understand everything and I want to know all I can about our amazing Creator! I also want every weight that has been holding me back from Him to fall off. I am ready to put away my personal agenda and seek His. All I want is all of Him!!! Anything God will let me learn and receive, I want to learn and receive. I love you Jesus!
Oh and just to add some amazingness to the picture, there's some amazing musicians here, which is so cool. We all played together on Saturday and I was amazed but the talent these kids have. I hope I can learn from all of them and develop better musically. They all are amazing.
So to sum it all up, I'm so happy and full of joy and I LOVE my new Elim family!